Social media~ the influencer of 2019!
Social media. The thing every teenager is obsessed with being it Snapchat, Instagram, YouTube, Twitter, Facebook, WhatsApp and what not. Being a 16 year old teen, I was the same. I stepped into Instagram world while I was in class 9th on insistance if my bestest friend! I made an account and we both started talking. I had a huge complexion with my body hence I didn't even dare to post my pic.
Even now when I look into mirror I m terrified and I want to break it. Genuinely, I avoid mirrors and cameras. I can not stand them, still sometimes.
At times when we wake up or are going to sleep, we brush our teeth following a night routine and go to bed. But believe me, I cannot stand mirrors. I hate myself in that thing. I avoid them. I don't even makeup much and I don't make any hairstyles like any other Indian girl.
I like capturing, not bring captured. My little sister is my model xD. She is a beautiful apple, I must say. Okay, whatever.
Coming back, social media has a super high influence on us, especially teens. Depression, anxiety have found their way only through these SNS only.
I m an introvert and obviously I cannot talk to people randomly. Like I won't even talk about normal girly issues to anyone, except my best friends. All my anger, depression, frustration, laughter has found one way- to express myself on social media.
There was a time when I was so much scared of getting judged by people that I stopped all my SNS. I realized I m falling prey into it's hands and it triggered me every time I wrote something positive or negative.
I expected sympathy and love from strangers rather than my family because just like every Indian family, who are really really conservative, especially about a girl child.
They won't let you talk to boys and at age 24 will tell you to sleep with one and have babies the next day. That's the logic *sarcastic claps*
Okay, controlling myself.
The reason I m writing this is social media is best in many ways, but worst in many more 100 ways. You tend to compare yourself with others. You feel disgusted about yourself and you get into anxiety, depression.
In my case, social media acted as a remedy when my family supressed me. But now, being 2 and more years of depression I feel social media has more risks then gains.
So all I want to say is please be safe. You know what's right for you but your family knows the best for you.
I still have a strong complexion with my face, my body, my hair and a lot many stuffs. I m writing this, as an achievement that I wish to break all these barriers and my zeal and strong courage to get myself over all these insecurities and complexions. Though my future plans definitely include coming in front of camera by starting my own YouTube channel. The sole reason for it is that I m free from my insecurities and fears. I want to win them so that no one can ever question me and make me weak on my knees.
Thanks a lot for reading my thoughts.
Be safe. Respect your family and take care of yourself!
Love,
Misblogee.
Even now when I look into mirror I m terrified and I want to break it. Genuinely, I avoid mirrors and cameras. I can not stand them, still sometimes.
At times when we wake up or are going to sleep, we brush our teeth following a night routine and go to bed. But believe me, I cannot stand mirrors. I hate myself in that thing. I avoid them. I don't even makeup much and I don't make any hairstyles like any other Indian girl.
I like capturing, not bring captured. My little sister is my model xD. She is a beautiful apple, I must say. Okay, whatever.
Coming back, social media has a super high influence on us, especially teens. Depression, anxiety have found their way only through these SNS only.
I m an introvert and obviously I cannot talk to people randomly. Like I won't even talk about normal girly issues to anyone, except my best friends. All my anger, depression, frustration, laughter has found one way- to express myself on social media.
There was a time when I was so much scared of getting judged by people that I stopped all my SNS. I realized I m falling prey into it's hands and it triggered me every time I wrote something positive or negative.
I expected sympathy and love from strangers rather than my family because just like every Indian family, who are really really conservative, especially about a girl child.
They won't let you talk to boys and at age 24 will tell you to sleep with one and have babies the next day. That's the logic *sarcastic claps*
Okay, controlling myself.
The reason I m writing this is social media is best in many ways, but worst in many more 100 ways. You tend to compare yourself with others. You feel disgusted about yourself and you get into anxiety, depression.
In my case, social media acted as a remedy when my family supressed me. But now, being 2 and more years of depression I feel social media has more risks then gains.
So all I want to say is please be safe. You know what's right for you but your family knows the best for you.
I still have a strong complexion with my face, my body, my hair and a lot many stuffs. I m writing this, as an achievement that I wish to break all these barriers and my zeal and strong courage to get myself over all these insecurities and complexions. Though my future plans definitely include coming in front of camera by starting my own YouTube channel. The sole reason for it is that I m free from my insecurities and fears. I want to win them so that no one can ever question me and make me weak on my knees.
Thanks a lot for reading my thoughts.
Be safe. Respect your family and take care of yourself!
Love,
Misblogee.
It is damn TRUE!!!
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